Helios

cLouD of Dissolution

I really am lost in a cloud of dissolution, my up is down, down is straight, sideways is the opposite way. Nothing makes since anymore, what i thought was true was all a bunch of lies piled on top of another. I was trying so hard to earn trust but if its never shown to me either how can i ever hope of acquiring it? The stupid stupid lies, my life is in disarray but no matter how bad it is the one thing that can guide me out, is that one blissful memory of you smiling, happy as can be……………

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mistake, i will not acknowledge you

so i made i mistake, my bad ok.

i had no idea the situation would escalate to what it did ok?

but i will do it again ok. its just the way i act, and you over react to the point i want to punch someone in the mouth.

im done with your bull shit……….its just not worth my time anymore

i actually hate you more than i thought!!!!

im boss, ur not………….just the way i am

(not very good blog huh?)

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you leave my heart on the floor sometimes you know that? tired of picking it up. feel like leaving it there :P

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Furry walls from the movie Get him to the greek

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wHen the End finally Does COME. I am to bear the weight of the world and give my life to save, save who i dont know. In my dreams i can never see her face. Maybe on the day. i will see that face

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fucken awesome, except this happened to me 5min ago

alypuu:

Feeling at the moment >:U

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"Art is not the application of a canon of beauty but what the instinct and the brain can conceive beyond any canon. When we love a woman we don’t start measuring her limbs."

Pablo Picasso

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Girl on the mOOn

You found that girl, only to realize it can never be with. She is just too high off your pedestal to reach. That girl, she is special - she likes staring at the moon and stars . For the guy way wants to breach the heavens and beyond, who stares day in and day out at the moon and stars. this girl that just keeps blowing you away, your mind and spirit scattered into a billion pieces . This pain is it real?

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Lil by lil :(

Little by little i liked you more. just hanging out, going out.

little by little i drove you away, saying this and that. getting you angry and upset all the time. not knowing if you like me back or not. i stick around for you but in the end it seems hopeless. You find me creepy, awkward??? I would kill my self to find out im that creepy guy. I want to hold you close, but the wall between me and you is too high to climb. i want to break through the mighty wall of yours. but no i cant, not with my tools. others pass through your wall in front of me, i only envy them for what i cannot do. i am weak. Day by day i try and try as i might. but in the end i only end up hurting you and me.

lil by lil our long arguments drove you further from me, me one sided simple bafoon; you beautiful, smart, fun, and just amazing to be with. you are only inches away from me but at times it feels worlds apart. these feelings i have might be nothing or everything.

lil by lil i am destroying your world and mine. even if you forgive me i will not forgive my weakness, my stupidity, my creepiness, myself.

lil by lil i will disapear, not to be seen or heard from. i will fade away till your heart finds mine. that faint light shining through the crack will soon disappear

lil by lil you will understand, but this life is is breaking

lil by lil

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Song from get him to the greek, 3 more to upload. 3 days(furry walls next)

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